I recently searched “mothers guilt” to see what other moms are worrying about these days. I wasn’t too surprised when Google came back with over 15 million results. So yeah, it looks like a common thread, it’s real, and I have it. It’s one theme that is on a constant loop in my head these days and you may remember that I have blogged about it before.
Our baby Evelyn is really the happiest baby I have ever met. She goes with the flow. She lets her older sister take charge, as Mabel is a take-charge kind of girl. You just have to make eye contact with this sweet baby; she crinkles her nose and smiles. And I just fall in love with her over and over again. And that’s when my guilt plows right through me.
I wasn’t too surprised when Google came back with over 15 million results...
Evelyn is loved and well cared for but I feel she gets the short end of the stick. She doesn’t get the kind of one on one time Mabel did. She doesn’t get to co-sleep like Mabel did. She doesn’t get to soothe herself on my breast at any time of the day or night. And she sure doesn’t get all my undivided attention. And what gets me is that Evelyn looks at me like I’m the bees knees and yet I know she’s missed out on so much mommy time. And she will never know the difference and it breaks my heart.
I know the reality of the situation and I do my best to divvy up my time between the girls. But the guilt still plagues me. I am trying not to be so doom and gloom about it as I actually welcome my guilt trips. It makes me take a better look at the areas I might need to be paying more attention to.
What’s your guilt trip? And why are we so hard on ourselves?
From my home to yours,